everything feels like pushing buttons or folding clothes or helping clients. hm. i didn’t realize that about myself. maybe “not only a massage” would relax me because maybe happiness works differently than that. in any case i still have this pushing buttons, folding clothes, helping clients, therapy feeling, and i both like and don’t like it. i’m just glad the therapy is in there, and i think that that’s what this is; it is highly therapeutic to be honest with oneself. Honesty feels pretty alright. Rock n Roll, Namaste, and something that sounds like namaste feels but feels more like the 90’s. I really enjoyed the yellow smiley face craze.