its not fair God/to have all of these misplaced feelings/so many years too late/but…
1999 sunscreen song
lungs
capitalism is a hard world/it makes you not want to take care of yourself/what is a cigarette in new york/or anywhere?/in europe the cigarettes are sweet/and smooth
beach.
I am not at the beach, and I am very sad…
tERROR
terribly embarrassing inexplicable sadness/ineffable?/no/exhausting.
uppers
caffeine/uppers/only go so far/i want to dance
Sweetness & Decency
Write what you know. I only know my secrets. I don’t feel like making shit up. Therefore I only know metaphor of myself and facts I’ve collected throughout my existence. Still I feel I know nothing. Grace and honor. “Sweetness and decency,” she repeated kind of hating herself, prior to the Gregory Peck pick-me-up.
ten months til nov 8
“Once I get a new phone my whole life will change,” she wrote as she wondered how this could possibly be one more piece of commentary on the “changing world” (millennialism, technology, isolation, etc, etc)
Ten months remain until the 2016 presidential election, and though I know I live in a country where it’s sort of always been “the puppet on the right or the puppet on the left”, and I feel like it hasn’t truly affected my life, I know that it has. “Politics” as it were are not presented in such a way that makes them easily accessible to the ones who need it the most I want to say, but I don’t know if that is even true, because I’m not convinced that being educated on politics would change my life very much, although I do appreciate the sense of “community” it brings out in America…
I’ve got to be honest. Donald Trump has got a kind of appeal, as in he’s the quintessential capitalistic evil genius who gets shit done, and as a feminist I’ve come to understand that these types of beings are humans too. Everyone has a spectrum of evil. Men are more in touch with “the value of human life.” I hate thinking about the world and who has to die for this or that to change… I hate accepting that the world is like this.
For now I’m more an artsy type who knows that art and music will survive no matter what so that’s my field. I’m more like these people on the left than these people on the right, but maybe that’s why I kind of care right now. I choose Courtney Love because its hard for me to imagine the awful things I’ve heard about her, and look at how lovely their family look(ed/s), and look at how civilized The Clintons and Trumps once looked:
I go for Hillary solely based on her fashion sense, in that she has none, so I know she is the kind of woman who can handle thoughts of “sizing up” human life (though it puts a smile on my face to see her rocking the plaid in the 90’s with K-Stew’s now famous “resting bitchy face”. It’s okay to be female guys…)
She’s a fuckin’ bawler if she can play with the boys, and she’s got to have a lot of compassion to have stuck by her man during that o-so scandalous… what was it… fucking adultery? The Clintons are just as much “celebrete” as the Trumps, except The Clintons have more class. If you’re not stressed out enough to be driven to “commit adultery” with a pudgy intern then… you’re not doing your job as president, and I think Hillary gets that. Dudes she’s not a pussy. She gets over the parts of life that need to be gotten over to move forward. It’s not like he was fucking someone like Melania. I’m a Spice Girl at heart. I dig both what Monica and Melania have done here:
Shit man. All I have is the knowledge that statistically women are more likely to invest in the things that matter the most to “make the world a better place” like their families, community, and education. Hillary’s got to be on the good side, and Melania can keep Donald… honest… or whatever… girls like that do for men like him… #feminism
And then there is Bernie Sanders who all of my kindred spirit seem to dig. I know the dude’s got no game in terms of fashion like big flashy ads or “look at me, look at me”, and it is a little disheartening that… well… a lot of things are disheartening. For the time being Trump, The Clintons, and Sanders are on my mind as I watch on the news that Clinton and Sanders are neck and neck in the final Iowa polls. America… its ten months away… Michelle its ten months away and you live in New York. What can you do?… “I live in New York and it all feels so pointless when you live in a statically democratic state.”
1999 sunscreen song
1999 sunscreen song
not yet okay
mystery man
good boys are strong for their women. bad boys are strong for their girls.
If Britney can I can; having been this kind of person doesn’t make me evil.
not yet okay/with being an amazon/she…
daria
This is depressing. Just try to be happy when you’re not? Its kind of the easiest thing to do. I don’t know what goes into the making of an amazon, or a “Daria,” but I do know that “memes” are cultural genes, or adages like “stay strong & make them wonder why you’re still smiling” happens because storytelling is evolutionarily adaptive.
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