tnt i heard myself say/again/God/I hate being Jewish
arttherapy
dear mysel
art
Celebreality: I prefer to look on the upside of things. All of these women just experienced an upper on some level. Its terrible in some ways, but its the world we live in, and I bet each and every one of those girls are fab. “Reality television” world in America is kind of terrible, but there is an art to it at its core, and reality t.v.-obsession is a far better use of one’s time than… being into a guy who looks like that- just my taste. In any case, wellness is a craft. For me, its linked to art somehow, and I give thanks for that.
fascinations
Gisele.
I’m listening to “Breed” and I feel all… and then I hear ‘gisele’ and what “breed” really means, and hasn’t the “art” world come a long way, but still kind of sucks that I know more about the details of celebrealities without truly having been curious about them? I don’t understand fascinations. Isn’t Gisele such an amazon and wouldn’t it be cool if that’s what he meant instead of “she said?”
listening to music
You know that feeling when one songs about to end on a CD and another is coming? I miss that feeling. iPods don’t do it for me. I think it was an evil genius mood of apple to put the word “I” in front of “pod.”… Do I applaud Earth for this intense mind manipulation, feel sick at it, or just fucking… like… whatever
#wellnesswisdomROCKANDROLL
#nihilism
#coffee
never
I’ll never be able to tell anyone who I really am and this bothers me a great deal. So I’d rather think happy thoughts. Then I feel too tired for that too. The amount of pressure I feel is not right. I don’t deserve to feel this way. Period.
I can rationalize why I should feel like shit, but then I am only feeling terrible for YOU constantly and all the time and I am nothing else than something you’ve made feel small that you can feel big, and that’s how I feel right now, and I know it’s not your fault, and I know you don’t understand me, but this isn’t good for my health.